I Need a Support System

I'm currently watching the two episodes of the show HEAVY on A&E.

I was watching the first episode, where they spend a month at a health resort with a personal trainer.  One half of the pair, Jodi, complained through every work out session, then cry that she didn't want to fail.

I was thinking, "You are exaclty where I want to me, I WISH I had a personal trainer.  I could rock so hard if I had a personal trainer behind me, cheering me on.  Pushing me.

That is part of why I wanted to start this blog....

I can't afford a personal trainer.  I can't afford a gym membership.  Heck, I can't even afford fresh fruits and veggies, just sodium packed processed foods.

Its HARD.

Of course, its going to be hard for anyone, everyone, trying to lose 100+ pounds.

My husband asked if I wanted him to be my personal trainer.  I told him no.  I said he's not personal trainer material.  His idea of "helping" is to point out that I'm eating too much, no matter what I'm eating.

Example, this morning I had toast for breakfast, and skipped lunch.  We walked 2.5 miles around the park and I said I was hungry as I hadn't had lunch.  He said, "What was that huge thing you ate before we left?  Wasn't that lunch?"

Toast is a huge thing?  Its one slice of bread!


Yep, that sucker is HUGE.

I need a support system, not a person putting me down all the time.

Happy New Year, Time to Resolve

Weight: 228.8
Waist: 44 inches

That is supposed to be a Virtual Model representation of me.  Tell you what, she looks A LOT better than the real me.  I want to turn her sideways to see if her gut and her but stick out as much as mine do!

Its New Years 2011, and as with every New Year past, resolutions have been made.

One of my resolutions this year was to stop eating myself into oblivion.  I like to eat.  A lot.  So this might be a hard one for me!

Another one was to exercise more.

My wall calendar this year is all about nutrition and healthy stuff.  It has a little shape on every day of every month for you to color in if you exercised 30 minutes or more.  I need to get them little shapes filled in.

I realized recently that I've been drinking over a cup of sugar a day in my coffee alone, not counting the other beverages I drink!  So more water is a big one too.

I plan to weigh myself every morning.  I want those numbers to go down.  I don't know if I'm going to measure my waist weekly or monthly.  We'll have to see as time goes on.